With my mom passing, I’ve thought of so many things we did together and so many traditions we held as a family.

On Christmas Eve, we opened one gift. Usually it was pajamas or something we could use that night. On Christmas Day, the whole family was together and we would make breakfast together (mmmm Scrapple!) and we could not open gifts until mom and dad had their coffee and breakfast. We always went to the Legion’s easter egg hunt, went to the shore for 4th of July, went to see my grandma at the shore on the weekends in the summer, went school shopping before the new school year started and made Halloween bags together.

My mom had her faults but I remember so many awesome things about my childhood. She read bedtime stories to me, tucked me into bed, took me to work with her, always made sure we had food in the house and clothes on our backs. We ate dinner in the living room using TV trays and watched Simpsons together. I used to run into the room just to see the ‘couch scene’.

I hope that each and every one of you creates traditions for your family. I hope to continue it with mine. Tell me about yours in the comments!!


Rest in peace mommy

March 6th. I will never forget this day. My mom passed away. And it was gritty too. We took her off life support the week before. She survived 4 days. FOUR DAYS. It sounds so horrible when you are praying for your mom to just pass peacefully.

She had been sick since March 2015. It started with breast cancer and it was kind of like a domino effect from there. Blocked carotid arteries, several heart attacks, stents, triple bypass, radiation, cdiff, sepsis, MRSA, ovaries removed and ultimately death from suffering a stroke during emergency surgery for her femoral arteries being 100% blocked.

I can’t stress enough how important it is to see your doctor every year. Things like this can be prevented. She was only 67.

I got 5 days to mourn the loss of my mom. It has been 2 weeks and it’s still rough. I am back to work. Back to real life. Back to pretending everything is great when all I can see is her laying in the hospital bed when she should have lived for so many more years.┬áMy mom did everything she could for me. And she loved me and I knew she did. She made it very clear.